As an entheogenic medicine + breathwork companion, I honor death as a vital aspect of life.

In every life transition, death invites us to let go of a reality we once knew. Concurrently, birth invites us into an unknown reality.

And within that liminal space of what was and what will be, exists grief.

Our modern world teaches us to fear death, to resist the natural cycles of change. We’re taught that grief should have an expiration date. That pain doesn’t have a place in wellness.

We pathologize grief instead of embracing it as a teacher and necessary aspect of our human experience.

How we live determines how we die. We can choose to honor the natural cycles of contraction that always precedes our next expansion.

With each death, we learn to TRUST and ALLOW change to happen.

Change is liberating. It’s enlivening.

And in embracing it, we are invited to express our creative life force – our ALIVENESS.

It would be an honor to support you in embodying the fullest expression of your creative potential + aliveness.

photo by Ruth Radelet

Private 1:1 Offerings

  • Death Initiates Life Program

    Death Initiates Life Program

    A 13-week somatic healing journey through the grief of transitions to express your fullness of life.

    Trauma Energetics / Breathwork / Microdosing / Rituals

    Virtual offering

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  • Spirit Medicine Programs

    Spirit Medicine Programs

    Transformational journeys into non-ordinary states, preparation through integration.

    Preparation / Ceremony / Somatic Integration / Microdosing / Rituals

    Virtual + In-person offering

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  • Somatic Healing + Breathwork

    Somatic Healing + Breathwork

    Offered to first-time clients only.

    A 120-minute private session to support you in safely identifying, moving and expressing suppressed or repressed energy due to fear and shame.

    Trauma Energetic Healing / Breathwork

    Virtual or In-person offering

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Testimonials.

  • Ellen's "magic" is her ability to weave various wisdom traditions, energetic practices and music into a healing tapestry as she accompanied me on a journey through different portals, even through the grief that I had long been avoiding. I experienced the gifts that traversing these portals offer: the courage to be with what is; an expansion into the profound beauty of this embodied life; and connection with my own heart. Ellen also taught me how to remain grounded:  connected to my body, to this earth and to those who have walked and stewarded this earth long before. Her authenticity, wisdom, intuition and generosity of spirit are truly unique. I am forever grateful for her presence.

    LF

    Death Initiates Life Program

  • What a true gift working with Ellen. I felt held, seen and so supported as i moved through some very deep repressed feelings and emotions, freeing me up. Ellen has such a loving kind energy and a truly gifted Healer. Working with Ellen changed my life and I am truly grateful.

    JFW

    Death Initiates Life Program

  • Working with El, I’ve opened up to the possibility that I can be safe in the world — not only safe, which with CPTSD is no easy feat, but also loved by the universe. In doing so, I’ve opened to my own self-love and confidence. My unfolding while working with El happened so organically that one day I just realized the world I desire and hope for does exist. But to fully live in that world, I need to release old stories surrounding my self worth. That’s something I’m working on every day and have found myself taking more pauses throughout my day to find the stillness of me.

    Kate D.

    Death Initiates Life Program

  • Making the decision to journey with Ellen was truly transformative for me. She approaches each step of the process with such clarity, intuitive wisdom and gentleness, and was able to create such a safe space in our work together, where I felt so supported and open to receive what I needed to receive.

    NL

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • If your breath is your anchor on a journey through the vast expanse of your consciousness, then Ellen is the hand extended and held throughout. There are not enough words in this world to encompass the warmth, nurturance, and care with which she exudes as your companion and guide. Her presence and insight was as vital to my most life-changing experience as the Sacred Mushroom was.

    Christina C.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • My gut told me for years that I needed to explore mushrooms for my healing, but I was too apprehensive to try it on my own. From the moment I talked to Ellen, I felt completely supported and guided. Ellen created so much ease and space for my journey to unfold, and I am so deeply grateful for the wisdom she shared every step of the way. Life continues to shift over a month after my journey––I feel a different calm and peace. I remember to breathe deeply more often. My heart feels more open to the people I love. I see trees in vivid detail in a way I simply hadn't before.

    Karen S.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • I was supported and encouraged to explore and express anything, that felt “right” during the journey. It was a very private, individually customed, multidimensional and truly extraordinary experience. As I surrendered into it - real magic happened.. Music and medicine, invited me to a never seen before- world of shapes, forms, geometry, vivid colors. It was above and beyond my expectations. It felt like opening a portal to new dimensions, discovering inner knowledge, power and divinity.

    Aleksandra G.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • Ellen is clearly meant to be doing this work. Her guidance and support undoubtedly helped me to access a deeper experience and more nuanced understanding than if I had gone it alone. A profoundly good listener—warm, focused, curious, very tuned-in—Ellen has a knack for asking questions that helped me to crack-open big, juicy realizations, perspective shifts, and doorways into my journey with this incredible medicine.

    J.K., Microdosing Program

    Death Initiates Life Program

  • My very tender heart join the ceremonial circle this week led by [Ellen] — who is so heart-centered, vulnerable, present and alive — I was immediately drawn to her medicine and she has come through with wisdom and healing that has been utterly profound and unexpected.

    Paige S.

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  • I loved my first Cannabis journey with Ellen! It was incredibly relaxing and I was able to access several past lives. It was crazy. I was only slightly nervous going in, as I haven't had much of a tolerance for Cannabis in the past. But Ellen was so gentle and guided us every step of the way.

    Ruby N. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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  • Ellen was such an amazing gentle guide during the Cannabis breathwork journey. I had some fears about imbibing more tokes than i was used to. But Ellen helped me to feel super comfortable and let me know that I could take as much as I was comfortable with. I went into the jouorney wanting to feel more connected with my Higher Self and I received such beautiful + powerful messages.

    Lydia H. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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  • Sometimes the Universe puts us in specific places and we don’t get to decide how long, because we have a greater calling. I have to be in the energy of all generations of my family in order to connect deeper to my ancestors and heal our generational trauma. This is my work today, and I’m forever grateful to Ellen and Cannabis Sativa for this experience.

    Samantha W. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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Introducing Alive!

A movement to dissolve apathy so that we can FEEL our aliveness + EXPRESS our boldest creative potential.

Alive! is a revolution and a call to action.

Because no living human has ever experienced a time like this before.

And WE ARE ALL NEEDED for the change that is happening now on our planet.

What’s inside when you join…

  • Weekly live How to Human energetic practices to ground, clear, protect, and reconnect.

  • Monthly Breathe sessions—conscious connected breathwork journeys to shift your subconscious.

  • Monthly Water + Fire Grief Practice, honoring change, loss, and release through breath and ritual.

  • Monthly in-TEA-gration Circles for processing endings and cultivating new beginnings.

  • Monthly MOTHEROOT shamanic journeys centered on ancestral healing for Asian women/femmes.

  • A supportive, intimate community space away from the vortex of social media.

  • A growing library of on-demand replays and resources to support you whenever you need them.