As an entheogenic death + grief companion, I embrace death as a practice for a liberated life and walk with brave humans through the death portals of their life transitions.

In every transition, there is a death, a letting go of what once was to make room for what is becoming.

Our modern world teaches us to fear death, to resist the natural cycles of change. We resist grief, pathologizing it instead of embracing it as a teacher and necessary aspect of our human experience.

How we live determines how we die. We can choose to bravely walk through our many death portals. We can choose to ritualize death, honoring the natural cycles of contraction that always precede our next expansion.

With each death, we learn to trust and surrender to the process of transformation. We liberate ourselves. And at the end of our lives, we can let go peacefully into a good death, without regrets.

I’d love to companion you on your healing journey.

My personal life has been transformed by my relationship with sacred plant medicine, my breathwork practice, and somatic healing through developmental, ancestral and generational trauma.

I faced my fear of death and dying after experiencing most of my life avoiding grief and pain. And it’s through pushing against my uncomfortable edges that I was able to fall back in love with life, my body, and step fully into my purpose in this lifetime.

My somatic healing practice blends breathwork, entheogenic medicines, music + sound healing, somatic root healing, inner child work, visualization, altar / prayer work, meditation, and grief work.


breathwork + somatic healing

Breathwork + Somatic Healing Session

For new clients only.

A 120 minute private session to support you in identifying and working through developmental, ancestral and intergenerational trauma.

We will work with a mixture of the following tools –

  • Somatic healing with Transpersonal Energy Healing

  • Breathwork

  • Inner child work

  • Visualization

  • Movement

If you decide you would like to continue working together after this session, you can apply this to the Death/Rebirth Mentorship Program.

$333


Water + Fire Grief Circle

Free community offering

Fourth Tuesdays 6p pst / 9p et

This is a ceremony working with ritual and elemental energy. We offer the expression of our grief through breath and movement to our ancestors, the dead and Unseen, and call in divine support for the intention of creating solutions to the violence and oppression that we witness daily.

We work with the support of Water – a yin force that holds us and supports us as we feel into our depths and give our bodies permission to express what they have been holding for us. 

Water helps us SOFTEN. It helps us quell the rage so that we can focus and harness that inner Fire for creativity and problem-solving. It helps us quiet down to intuitively feel into what actionable solutions want to be birthed from our joyful self-expression.

We then direct our collective Fire – yang – towards these solutions, asking for the support of the Unseen in our efforts towards liberation for all beings, coming back into right relationship with the Earth and Cosmos.

Testimonials.

  • Working with El, I’ve opened up to the possibility that I can be safe in the world — not only safe, which with CPTSD is no easy feat, but also loved by the universe. In doing so, I’ve opened to my own self-love and confidence. My unfolding while working with El happened so organically that one day I just realized the world I desire and hope for does exist. But to fully live in that world, I need to release old stories surrounding my self worth. That’s something I’m working on every day and have found myself taking more pauses throughout my day to find the stillness of me.

    Kate D. – Death/Rebirth Mentorship Program

  • Making the decision to journey with Ellen was truly transformative for me. She approaches each step of the process with such clarity, intuitive wisdom and gentleness, and was able to create such a safe space in our work together, where I felt so supported and open to receive what I needed to receive.

    NL, Spirit Medicine Journey

  • If your breath is your anchor on a journey through the vast expanse of your consciousness, then Ellen is the hand extended and held throughout. There are not enough words in this world to encompass the warmth, nurturance, and care with which she exudes as your companion and guide. Her presence and insight was as vital to my most life-changing experience as the Sacred Mushroom was.

    Christina C. – Spirit Medicine Journey

  • My gut told me for years that I needed to explore mushrooms for my healing, but I was too apprehensive to try it on my own. From the moment I talked to Ellen, I felt completely supported and guided. Ellen created so much ease and space for my journey to unfold, and I am so deeply grateful for the wisdom she shared every step of the way. Life continues to shift over a month after my journey––I feel a different calm and peace. I remember to breathe deeply more often. My heart feels more open to the people I love. I see trees in vivid detail in a way I simply hadn't before.

    Karen S. – Spirit Medicine Journey

  • I was supported and encouraged to explore and express anything, that felt “right” during the journey. It was a very private, individually customed, multidimensional and truly extraordinary experience. As I surrendered into it - real magic happened.. Music and medicine, invited me to a never seen before- world of shapes, forms, geometry, vivid colors. It was above and beyond my expectations. It felt like opening a portal to new dimensions, discovering inner knowledge, power and divinity.

    Alkesandra G. – Spirit Medicine Journey

  • Journeying with Ellen has never failed to connect me to my own internal depths. She is a masterful and skilled facilitator who is highly equipped to guide your inner exploration. I sincerely recommend not only her extraordinary MOONDOSE container, but also all of her other wonderful offerings!

    Robyn K. – MOONDOSE Crew 03, Scorpio Season

  • Ellen is clearly meant to be doing this work. Her guidance and support undoubtedly helped me to access a deeper experience and more nuanced understanding than if I had gone it alone. A profoundly good listener—warm, focused, curious, very tuned-in—Ellen has a knack for asking questions that helped me to crack-open big, juicy realizations, perspective shifts, and doorways into my journey with this incredible medicine.

    J.K.– Microdosing Guidance Program

  • Moondose was an absolutely incredible, life changing and affirming journey that showed me what it means to live. I really have no words for how much Ellen and Moondose has changed my life. I feel so much more connected to my ancestors, my inner child and myself. I didn’t know that this was exactly what I needed and that the lessons I learned was what my soul needed. Infinite gratitude to Ellen for holding this magical and sacred space.

    Ariel Z. – MOONDOSE Crew 03, Scorpio Season

  • My very tender heart join the ceremonial circle this week led by [Ellen] — who is so heart-centered, vulnerable, present and alive — I was immediately drawn to her medicine and she has come through with wisdom and healing that has been utterly profound and unexpected.

    Paige S. – Cannabreath

  • Just finished up a month-long microdosing container with the incredible [Ellen]. Such a powerful container of remembering inner wisdom, tapping into feminine guidance, and inner child and ancestral connection. 10/10 would recommend!

    Yvonne C. – MOONDOSE Microdosing Group Journey

  • I loved my first Cannabis journey with Ellen! It was incredibly relaxing and I was able to access several past lives. It was crazy. I was only slightly nervous going in, as I haven't had much of a tolerance for Cannabis in the past. But Ellen was so gentle and guided us every step of the way.

    Ruby N. – Cannabreath

  • Ellen was such an amazing gentle guide during the Cannabis breathwork journey. I had some fears about imbibing more tokes than i was used to. But Ellen helped me to feel super comfortable and let me know that I could take as much as I was comfortable with. I went into the jouorney wanting to feel more connected with my Higher Self and I received such beautiful + powerful messages.

    Lydia H. – Cannabreath

  • Sometimes the Universe puts us in specific places and we don’t get to decide how long, because we have a greater calling. I have to be in the energy of all generations of my family in order to connect deeper to my ancestors and heal our generational trauma. This is my work today, and I’m forever grateful to Ellen and Cannabis Sativa for this experience.

    Samantha W. – Cannabreath

Be guided through a journey through four cycles of life.

“Reclaim Your Life Through Breathwork” is a four-journey album that is inspired by the seasons and natural cycles of life – planting seeds, connecting to joy, reuniting with your inner child to confront energetic blocks, and grieving endings.

May you feel the deep love from our Earth Mother, the Sun, the Ancestors of Land + Lineage holding you as you journey deep within to connect to your truth.

I invite you to…

 

Leave all expectations behind.

Every healing journey will be different. Just as there is no identical snowflake, there are no identical breathwork or medicine journeys. Each one will be radically different as you transform your energy.

Eradicate “normal” – it doesn’t exist. Your journey is uniquely your own – in both life and healing.

Trust your body.

Your body is your unconscious mind. It has kept you safe through defensive survival patterns. It has suppressed emotions you were not yet ready to feel. It has been calling to you throughout your life and asking you to listen. Let’s begin to do that together, safely.

Honor all experiences.

Honor how energy presents – mentally, physically and emotionally. Give yourself permission to feel it all within our protected sacred space. This is when healing truly begins.