As an entheogenic death + grief companion, I embrace death as a practice for a liberated life and walk with brave humans through the death portals of their life transitions.

In every transition, there is a death, a letting go of what once was to make room for what is becoming.

Our modern world teaches us to fear death, to resist the natural cycles of change. We resist grief, pathologizing it instead of embracing it as a teacher and necessary aspect of our human experience.

How we live determines how we die. We can choose to bravely walk through our many death portals. We can choose to ritualize death, honoring the natural cycles of contraction that always precede our next expansion.

With each death, we learn to trust and surrender to the process of transformation. We liberate ourselves. And at the end of our lives, we can let go peacefully into a good death, without regrets.

Private Offerings.

  • Death/Rebirth Program

    Death/Rebirth Program

    A 13-week companioned walk through a death portal of transformation into your rebirth.

    Somatic therapy / Breathwork / Grief work / Microdosing / Rituals

    Virtual

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  • Spirit Medicine Programs

    Spirit Medicine Programs

    Sacred medicine journey solo retreat programs for spiritual + somatic healing.

    Preparation / Ceremony / Somatic Integration / Microdosing / Rituals

    Virtual / In-person

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  • Breathwork + Somatic Healing

    Breathwork + Somatic Healing

    Offered to first-time clients only.

    A 120-minute private healing session to work through energetic blocks of fear, survival patterns, grief, and shame.

    Breathwork / Somatic therapy

    Virtual

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Testimonials.

  • Working with El, I’ve opened up to the possibility that I can be safe in the world — not only safe, which with CPTSD is no easy feat, but also loved by the universe. In doing so, I’ve opened to my own self-love and confidence. My unfolding while working with El happened so organically that one day I just realized the world I desire and hope for does exist. But to fully live in that world, I need to release old stories surrounding my self worth. That’s something I’m working on every day and have found myself taking more pauses throughout my day to find the stillness of me.

    Kate D.

    Death/Rebirth Program

  • Making the decision to journey with Ellen was truly transformative for me. She approaches each step of the process with such clarity, intuitive wisdom and gentleness, and was able to create such a safe space in our work together, where I felt so supported and open to receive what I needed to receive.

    NL

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • If your breath is your anchor on a journey through the vast expanse of your consciousness, then Ellen is the hand extended and held throughout. There are not enough words in this world to encompass the warmth, nurturance, and care with which she exudes as your companion and guide. Her presence and insight was as vital to my most life-changing experience as the Sacred Mushroom was.

    Christina C.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • My gut told me for years that I needed to explore mushrooms for my healing, but I was too apprehensive to try it on my own. From the moment I talked to Ellen, I felt completely supported and guided. Ellen created so much ease and space for my journey to unfold, and I am so deeply grateful for the wisdom she shared every step of the way. Life continues to shift over a month after my journey––I feel a different calm and peace. I remember to breathe deeply more often. My heart feels more open to the people I love. I see trees in vivid detail in a way I simply hadn't before.

    Karen S.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • I was supported and encouraged to explore and express anything, that felt “right” during the journey. It was a very private, individually customed, multidimensional and truly extraordinary experience. As I surrendered into it - real magic happened.. Music and medicine, invited me to a never seen before- world of shapes, forms, geometry, vivid colors. It was above and beyond my expectations. It felt like opening a portal to new dimensions, discovering inner knowledge, power and divinity.

    Aleksandra G.

    Spirit Medicine Journey

  • Journeying with Ellen has never failed to connect me to my own internal depths. She is a masterful and skilled facilitator who is highly equipped to guide your inner exploration. I sincerely recommend not only her extraordinary MOONDOSE container, but also all of her other wonderful offerings!

    Yaerin K. – MOONDOSE Microdosing Crew

  • Ellen is clearly meant to be doing this work. Her guidance and support undoubtedly helped me to access a deeper experience and more nuanced understanding than if I had gone it alone. A profoundly good listener—warm, focused, curious, very tuned-in—Ellen has a knack for asking questions that helped me to crack-open big, juicy realizations, perspective shifts, and doorways into my journey with this incredible medicine.

    J.K., Microdosing Program

    Death/Rebirth Program

  • Moondose was an absolutely incredible, life changing and affirming journey that showed me what it means to live. I really have no words for how much Ellen and Moondose has changed my life. I feel so much more connected to my ancestors, my inner child and myself. I didn’t know that this was exactly what I needed and that the lessons I learned was what my soul needed. Infinite gratitude to Ellen for holding this magical and sacred space.

    Ariel Z. – MOONDOSE Microdosing Crew

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  • My very tender heart join the ceremonial circle this week led by [Ellen] — who is so heart-centered, vulnerable, present and alive — I was immediately drawn to her medicine and she has come through with wisdom and healing that has been utterly profound and unexpected.

    Paige S.

    Cannabis Medicine Journey

  • Just finished up a month-long microdosing container with the incredible [Ellen]. Such a powerful container of remembering inner wisdom, tapping into feminine guidance, and inner child and ancestral connection. 10/10 would recommend!

    Yvonne C. – MOONDOSE Microdosing Crew

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  • I loved my first Cannabis journey with Ellen! It was incredibly relaxing and I was able to access several past lives. It was crazy. I was only slightly nervous going in, as I haven't had much of a tolerance for Cannabis in the past. But Ellen was so gentle and guided us every step of the way.

    Ruby N. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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  • Ellen was such an amazing gentle guide during the Cannabis breathwork journey. I had some fears about imbibing more tokes than i was used to. But Ellen helped me to feel super comfortable and let me know that I could take as much as I was comfortable with. I went into the jouorney wanting to feel more connected with my Higher Self and I received such beautiful + powerful messages.

    Lydia H. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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  • Sometimes the Universe puts us in specific places and we don’t get to decide how long, because we have a greater calling. I have to be in the energy of all generations of my family in order to connect deeper to my ancestors and heal our generational trauma. This is my work today, and I’m forever grateful to Ellen and Cannabis Sativa for this experience.

    Samantha W. – Cannabis Medicine Journey

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Free Community Offerings.

  • Water + Fire Grief Circle

    Water + Fire Grief Circle

    A free 60-minute somatic grief practice for support + community connection.

    Fourth Tuesdays of the month at 6p pt / 9p et.

    Moving to 3rd Wednesdays beginning July 2024.

    Virtual

    Register
  • MUM Podcast

    MUM Podcast

    Stories of death + grief that inspire us to live loud.

    Two seasons a year. Season 3 begins September 2024.

    Learn more
  • Trip with Ellen Substack

    Trip with Ellen Substack

    A collection of personal essays and reflection on death, grief, culture, and entheogenic medicine.

    Also features New Moon / Full Moon tarot readings.

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  • Monthly Integration Circle

    Monthly Integration Circle

    A monthly integration circle offered to Medicine Members, Medicine Ceremony participants, and private program clients to support each other in community and integrate our healing experiences. Every 4th Wednesday of the month.

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More ways to work with me…

Monthly Medicine Ceremony

A monthly virtual spirit medicine journey from the comfort of your private home. Join the psychonaut explorers of the Medicine Membership group on a deep journey within where medicine meets breath and sound.

Medicine members = $55 / month to attend every ceremony.

Non-medicine members = $80 / ceremony.

All proceeds go towards my scholarship fund for private healing offerings.

Breathwork journeys on demand.

“Reclaim Your Life Through Breathwork” is a four-journey album that is inspired by the seasons and natural cycles of life – planting seeds, connecting to joy, reuniting with your inner child to confront energetic blocks, and grieving endings.

May you feel the deep love from our Earth Mother, the Sun, the Ancestors of Land + Lineage holding you as you journey deep within to connect to your truth.